A Title of non-noteworthiness

Why am I here? To serve God - that's about all I see here besides self glorification and self satisfaction. Do I care about life? nope not so much - I live for the aforementioned reasons, seeing the second 2 as having a severe emphasis on SELF. aquiring accolades for myself makes me sick to my stomach because the only reward I truly deserve is death. (man this is sounding pessimistic - it may get worse) To do well in school I study (sometimes) and then regurgitate the info to pass a test - I actually remember things if I want to or see them as being useful. Music - requires no real effort because God has given me talent that I really don't deserve - it makes me hate my talent when I recieve the recognition. I am nothing. My past mistakes follow me daily never allowing me to rest. Long awaited is the final rest but I will not leave until God has perscibed it.

The day is long, the rest is short but when grace shines through all is well.

"Now all has been heard; here is the conclusionof the matter: Fear God and keep his commandments, for this is the whole duty of man. For God will bring into judgment, including every hidden thing, whether it is good or evil." - Ecclesiastes 12:13-14